To The Man in My Heart

To celebrate Father’s Day, I am deeply thank for our heavenly father who gave each of us the great gift, someone, whom we called Dad. I, as all sons and daughters, would like to say, We Love You Abba-Our Father God & We Love You Dad-Our Earthly Father. We Thank You for Everything.

The sound of tic tic comes from an angle of the room, someone is doing something with a light from a computer screen. It’s a lunch break when everyone is resting and enjoying meal with friends. There is a woman who is so excited for a day to come in the mid of June. She cannot wait to see of how the world full of love in this celebration. I cannot find a word to describe of her feeling right now, what I know is her happiness coming from the  thankful heart and praising the one who created the world and every thing in it.

To the Man In My Heart, is another hearty writing to express my love and gratitude for the man who are meant to be in my life. I cannot start saying thank to another man except Thank to God who is the creator. He is the first person who let me know what is Love.

Image result for verse for father's day“Father, as we give thank to you everyday, I would like to thank again today as you bless me with the love and wisdom through this post. Lord, Thank You for allowing me to experience the love from my earthly father and driving another man come into my life as a guidance and supporter. I know that his children are being blessed to have them as their father as well. Lord, I am asking you to continue blessing them and touch their heart to seek you for those who haven’t known you yet. Father, open their heart and mind to see and hear your voice and accept you as their personal Lord and Savior. My prayer is that I can see those people I love in your Kingdom together with me. Lord, I lift up all my prayers and everything to you. In the name of Jesus I pray. Amen!”

your-father-gives-you-many-things-in-a-lifetimeI hope you know how much I love you PaPa. For 12 years that I was with you, those all are the greatest memories of daddy and me. I cannot say thank you enough for modeling the love and how to give up your happiness to put smile on other’s face. Thank you for keeping the good picture of you until the last day of yours. I am now understand why you did not allowed me to see you at the hospital is because you do not want me destroy the good memory of mine. Pa, I love you…I hope I can see and hug you again in heaven.

Image result for what god says about past mistakesBeside from My biological father, I would like to say Thank You for my uncles, Sour Neang. First year after my dad died, he is the one who came to complete this space. I love and respect you. I understand there are a lots of thing that happened which misunderstanding. One thing that I want to say is I Love you. You are the man in my heart. Your mistake cannot erase the goodness you ever did.

Another uncle of mine, Theara, what I have today is a part of him. Uncle, I would like to say Thank You for taking care of me and my family. No matter when or where, it was in the noon or night, hot or rain you are there for me to make sure I am safe and learn well. There was a time that you ride a motor just to caught the bus which was far in front so that I could go for a field visit (I am sorry, I got up late). You did a great job! I love You.

There is an outsider who came into my life just not long ago, I was so blessed for the time we spent together. He made me feel Love as a family again for being away without dad for many years. I just want to say Thank to him for all what he’s done. By what you do to your children, me, and others, I know you are a good father. We Love You!(Mr. Khoeum HAY)

Psalms 103 “As a father shows compassion to his children, so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear him.”

static1.squarespace.comThe Last but not Least, My spiritual dad, He is the great gift for me from Jesus. I am so blessed and thankful that God let him and his wife be a part of my life. Thank  you for bringing me to Jesus, teaching me to fear the lord, to walk with him, to live in his word, and to love him. Thank you for being there when I am weak physically and spiritually. You are the blessing to us. I have never forget that it comes by the Grace of God. “Dads, be the kind of fathers your children delight to fear. You are God to them until they know better.” says Pastor John from Desiring God. Kelly, you are this kind of Dad! We Love You!

Happy Father’s Day! To Dads all around the world. Thank You for all things you have done to us and your love for us. We honor you! Exodus 20:12 “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you. To close this with a prayer that you will be enjoy with your family during this special day. May God continues bless you with all of your work for him.

With God’s Love,


For All the Precious Woman Out there

“Beauty and Goodness do not define by your appearances. Stand up and use your differences shines through you!”

Image result for god created a world of diversity not to separate usI am writing this piece of article as an encouragement to my self of who I am. Also, I would like to dedicate this to all the beautiful daughter of CHRIST who have been through all kinds of negative impact by this world. I had had introduce the fear that I have within myself by a post “It’s OK not to be OK” last year when I first realized and would be able to see my natural beauty made my God. I have learnt there’s nothing wrong just to be different from others. Everyone on this earth had nothing in common in each other or share the same genetic. We are one of a kind designed by the creator of this universe.

I am struggle dealing with worthiness of life. My body image becomes one of the weakness I have encountered. I am afraid that my size would be the barrier of any kinds of communication and misunderstanding. I am worried that I won’t be accepted by the majority because I have different kinds of taste of food, habit and lifestyles. I have got to go by own way of interests. As pretending to be someone else, it doesn’t last long. There is a time that you will show the true you. Therefore, I am not in the comfort zone of copying other.

It happened last week when I had to smile and accepted all kinds of word teasing me that I am A Fat Girl. When I reached my hand to get the food, they cut by saying you could not eat because you are fat. When I went to bed early, they said no wonder  I am Fat because I slept a lot. When I ate sweet, they said fat people always love sweet things. There is no way that you can lose even a pound. I would like to ask you what do you feel if people at the dining table saying that you are fat and you should not eat? I was deeply thank that they care about me and my size.

However, what kind of characteristic are these? Are these the model to help girl grow independent and love themselves as who they are? Are teasing the good ways to help people lose weight? Are theses voice rebuking you as a person who is unique and loved by God? I wonder how do they see fat people? What do their heart say about being fat and being judge? What’s the definition of beautiful girl? How do they find beauty in themselves? by heart  or body?

I am confront to believe my family when people say I am beautiful when other say I am not. I started to be shaken by the voices of insecurities and felt like I am like the Clown Fish which everyone laugh at you even you are not funny (Just because I am a clown fish). Please stop judging woman by their look.

“Beauty and Goodness do not define by your appearances. Stand up and use your differences shines through you!”

Dear women,

Let’s believe of God says who you are. Whatever people says about you is not true. God says you are beautiful (Psalm 45:11) and unique (Psalm 139:13) so stop afraid of being who you are. You are loved (Jer.31:13) and Special (Eph:2:10) because you are created with purpose (Jer.29:11). You are lovely (Dan.12:3) and cared for (Eph:3:17, 18, 18). You are precious because you are his masterpiece (1-Cor.6:20). You are strong (Ps.18:35) and important to him (1-Pet2:9). You are forgiven (Ps103:12) so do not live in your past and sin. You are a new creation (2-Cor.5:17) because you are born again by the grace of God. You are his children so you are protected (Ps.121:3) and chosen as his family (Eph.2:19). You are empowered (Phil.4:13)and you are his(Is43:1).

With God’s Love,



Am I A Good Friend?

John 13: 34-35

“A new command and I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another”

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There are times when I think in a very positive way. The way I think make people think that i don’t have much love. I want to share with you that this thought happen because I trust the Lord. I have plan for you, Plan to prosper and not to harm you. For this reason, faith is in my self. If there are things which happen differently form what I have expected, it doesn’t mean it is bad. There are hopes in front of us. However, Let me give you my personal experience. I felt bad about myself when someone said to me  I don’t have enough love for my friend. When the very serious commandment is to love our neighbor  more than our self. I started to think that I am not a good friend to her. It is a reminder to my self to feel pity of other when they are pity and to rejoice with them when they are rejoice.I sense that God told me through other person to remind myself to think of other like I think of myself, to love other like I love myself, to pray for other like I pray for myself. I know that I am so worried about “ME” without thinking of other.

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I was guilty of myself for not loving my friend enough as I should. By this post, This is also a confession to her that I did not mean her presence will make me uncomfortable. I will be blessed for her to work in the same place with me if it is the will of God. As I had share with you, that my new job comes from God’s Called. I cannot do anything if it’s not God’s plan. At that time, I cried and then I woke up thinking of his word “You are not a good friend.” I prayed and asked God for his forgiveness. I prayed that God will pour his grace all over me to make me feel love and not being judged. Every time that I do something wrong or said something that would hurt another, guilty is standing in front of me.

Therefore, we are not mean to live under guilt and our sin, please tell ourselves of who we are. Last Sunday, My pastor preach about law and grace. We can not be righteous just to walk by the law but Grace alone that clean us and bring us upright before God. And that when we born again and have a relationship with God the father by the Son Jesus Christ. This help me dealing with my guilt. I cannot put myself in this guilty box. Not only talk about this case happened to me, but through my word, mind, and deed; I cannot count my sin against God. If I really care about breaking this law of loving one another, how about other commands? Only one way to live spiritually peace is to rest in God’s Grace. Go before God and Repent. Seek for his kingdom and ask him to give you the ability to love like Christ and to live like Christ.

With God’s Love


I Bet You miss me too!

You are not with me, but you are here in my heart. Thanks for coming into my life and stamp all sweet and lovely moments on my memories.

Kids congratulated their friends who got a seat in “Musical Chair”

It’s been nearly a week that I am here at a new place. It is not a school. If you are a teacher and you are changing your job from being with student to sit down working on computer all day long, you will probably feel difficult at first.

They really love cutting, sticking, finding​, coloring and helping each other.

The first and foremost feeling I have right now is missing them. I miss my kids. I miss their voice called me Teacher Minear! You know what- I had a lot of terrible days from home. Whenever I arrived school, those little kids brought all the problems and sadness from me. I miss all the crying voices from difference class. I miss their kiss and lovely hug.

I love to see them learn and have fun with friends. I miss our morning routine. I miss our circle time. I am happy to see those kids know the days of the week and be able to spell each day correctly. 

I love seeing them doing art and craft. I am happy seeing them coloring and writing little note for their family. I love when they said they miss me and now I want to tell I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

 I pray that God will bless you, your family, and your you teacher! 




My First Day At The New Work Place

shutterstock_209477656-300x189Praise  the Lord for his amazing plan! I am about to write about my first day since yesterday but I was not feeling well. I feel a little better today so I think I should share with you of how great it was.

To begin with, I would like to thank all of you who have been prayed for my health and my job. It’s a blessing that I could come to work yesterday. I slept for whole day the day before yesterday and was so tired. Yesterday, we started our work by doing devotion for an hour. The former staff prayed for us to give us wisdom and to bless us as we become a part of their family. It is a wonderful start, right?



It is always great to have a chance working in a family of Christ. This is what I long for. I really love the warmth environment with loving and kindness as brother and sister. I can be who I am and be inspired by other who is mature in faith. I am happy to get myself surround with all of good people who follow by God and have a desire to serve. I am praying that God will give me wisdom and all what I need to help me  learn to do right things and walk on the right path.

There are a lot of things that I need to learn in order to work effectively and professionally. As it is my first time to do this job and it is new to me, I believe in you father that you will grant me what I really need. I trust in you that I can do all things through you. I am now in a probation period that I have to try from my best to pass the period.

For all of you who have asked me about my first day at work, this is the answer. I WAS BLESSED BEYOND MEASURED. This is the place where we work as a family with the love from Christ.

Ohh! I forgot to share with you about a scripture from this morning devotion. Psalm 119:103 How sweet are your words to my taste, sweeter than honey to my mouth! It is true because whenever we feel down and no courage to move on only his word can bring us back to life.

It’s all for today. I love you as you first love me and I love everyone as He always love us! May God Bless You.



Trust in Him

I will start my new job on the second of May. It is the same date last year that God allowed me to be a teacher for a year. Now, he brought me from a school to another place. 

To begin with, I would like to say thanks to my loving father (Jesus). I now believe that he always have something better for me. This happen is not because I have an ability to get it. I know that things happen for a reason and there is only him that can cause all things to happen. This achievement is the part of all of your prayer. I would like to thank my spiritual parent, my pastor, and my brother and sister in Christ who always there for me when I feel like there is no one. 

It’s been such a great time being with kids, laughing and playing together. Praise the Lord and I’m thankful for putting me in a place where we work as a family.

In the department where my head teacher is a godly woman, a good mother, a good sister, and a best friend to me.

I’m thankful for bringing me good friends and memorable students. There were so many tough times that I complained to you and asked you to bring me out from this loving place just to fulfill my fleshy desired. I bet you might ever had this kind of feeling when you are no longer in love with your work but just want to do it because you have no any other. I admit I am the one who felt that but remember that when you are not happy with something or someone just pray. Pray for the Lord to help you understand thing better and help them to understand you too. Ask the Lord to give you love to love. I always speak Colossians 3:23 (Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men) to myself when I feel no love inside me to do my job. It helps me to get my mind back on him, to see things further and do things better. 

Keep Clam, Trust the Lord



His Love Win Everything

Father, I am thankful that you opened my eyes and my heart to see your greatest love. Thank you for allowing me to get free from my offense, my mood swings, and my pain I used to have. I am sorry for not understanding about your love and blame those I love for hurting me. I’m sorry for just think of myself better than the other. I’m sorry to those I have hurt them. 

I have lived under the pressure of mood swings and the pain that I tried to buried it down.  The reason that bring  me down to that temptation is  because I don’t secure myself with God’s word. I found out that It was because I did not love God as he loves me. If I truly love him from all my heart, I would keep his words but I did not. That’s why we should always pray for God to help us Love him more and more.

John 14:23-24-If anyone loves me, he will obey my teaching. My father father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home in him. He who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own;they belong to the Father who sent me.

God showed me through Proverbs 3:3-6 about the benefits of keeping his words.

Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. The you will win favor and a good name is the sight of God and man. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not for your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

When God’s words are  not in me, Satan got into the relationship between me and my heavenly father. I listened to the voice of Satan telling me that I just cannot forgive my friends because they ask for apologize. He (Satan) reminded me of my past experienced, took out the bad time of mine, forced me to return to the darkest season of my life. Satan told me to fight back for what I should deserve. The voice of Satan build up the insecurity of Love, the doubtful and misunderstanding, the lie of forgiveness, the fear of trust, and the important of self-satisfaction. 

Romans  8:28-And all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

When  Satan tries to attack us, meditates on God’s word to get our self on the track. When it’s hard to forgive someone, reminding yourself of

 1 Peter 4:8- Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

 If I love my friends deeply  as I love myself, I won’t remember their mistakes because love erase all the wrongs.

John 15:12 Love each other as I have loved you.

I will forgive them just Christ forgave me; I will love them as we all receive the Love from God.

Ephesians 4:32-Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgive each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

No love can compare to God’s Love.We are here in the world of love, under the grace of God and live by the breath of life; Give no place for hatred but Love one another as one family in Christ. 

The final greetings from Apostle Paul in Ephesians 6:23-24 is the great message to end this post.

Peace to the brothers, and love with faith form God the Father and The Lord Jesus Christ. Grace to all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with an undying love.

May God bless you ! 

    Thank You Jesus

    For I know the plan I have for you, declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

    Being a new born God’s girl is special more than I have ever thought I will. Your promise is the hope that I hold on too (Job 11:18-19). I often get sway by the storm and weak during these hard-times because I forgot your promise. It is because I do not have enough patience and strength to fight with it. I let my little problem cover your glory and make me doubt about your grace. However, you show me that you are a good father. You cannot turn your back to me because I make mistakes. For this reason, I believe in you and I trust in you that everything you do is for my own good. in Proverbs 3:11-12, My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline, and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in. You love me that’s why you discipline me.

    Thanks you father for blessing me a life that I am not worthy enough to own. Your graced make me sinless. You open my eyes and my heart to see the greatness in you.  You allow me to pass all those hard time and show me that you are always in control. I know that your love for us is immeasurable. Father, you never tired or get bored of me complaining my problems to you but you listen to it carefully and you give me hope and encouragement every day. You lay your hand to me and comfort me with your greatest love as a father comforting his daughter. You never get tired but it pleases you when I moan and ask you for help. My prayer always answered and you are so kind; you give me the thing that I haven’t asked for. You forgive my sin which I am not good enough to deserved. You let me go through all the hardships because you have something much better for me. I believe because you said so and this is your promise to me. It’s the truth that the pain you let me feel is the way that you bring me back and become closer to you. Without your plan for me, I would not have the chance to praise you today. I am really thankful and sorry for being a spoil daughter.

    You sent me out from the market to work in a school where I don’t have to work on weekend and you sent someone to rent my stall so that I can go to church to worship and to praise you with other believer and have fellowship with them. You give me the strength and boldness to tell my mom the truth that I will go to church and to join the bible study. I feel so comfortable being with you and actually depend on you. In Joshua 1:9, you tell me to be strong and courageous for you will be with me wherever I go.

    Being with you I feel so special just the way I am. I am blessed to call myself a daughter of king and to tell the world that I am not fatherless. You give me a gold card insurance which ensures that it’s going to be OK no matter what happen in my life (John 14: 27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.) You are the one who is with me during those difficulties and to make me live fearlessly forever. It is so special that this Goal Card Insurance given by the father will never expire and I do not have to pay for it.

    1 peter 3:18 For Christ died for sin once for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive in the spirit.

    Thanks for giving me Your Gold Card Insurance (the promises that never failed and the gift at eternity)

    I love you Jesus!

    Who said I can’t celebrate Father’s day

    I don’t have father, but I’m not fatherless

    My dad died when I was 12 years old. Now I am 23 years old. It has been more than ten years that I live without him. I’m sad because we did not celebrate Father’s day when he was alive. I have no chance to tell him how much he meant to me. This week, I helped my kids at school making Father’s day cards for their fathers. I was so excited to see those little kids showed love to thier fathers. I also made one for myself too; my colleagues asked me why did I make a father’s day card if I don’t have a father. Is it because I’m fatherless that i cannot celebrate father’s day?

    I’m not ok but it’s ok. I don’t have father, but that’s ok. I don’t have a father, but that’s ok just to made a card. It’s ok not to be ok. However, it is not ok if I miss telling you how much our father God is meant for you and for me.

    When I think of how much my dad loved me, I felt God’s love over me. God’s love is unchangeable. When there are hard times, he strengthen us. He never leaves us nor forsake us. His steadfast love endures forever.

    Thanks God for being a good father for us in this earth and in heaven. Thanks God for blessing me a good father and unforgettable childhood memories. Thanks God for allowing me to praised and glorified you. Thanks God for every single blessing you bless me.

    Minear is a girl whom father lives in heaven. His name is Jesus. He loves her so much and everything he does just for her own sake. Minear always thankful to his heavenly Father. Since Jesus is the Best father for heaven and earth, we all thankful for his steadfastlove toward us and praising him for blessing us with a good father and allowing us to be his children.

    Happy Father’s day! Praising to our Creator who created the heaven and the earth!

    A Newborn God’s Girl 👸


    He is all our answer@jesus. ourlord

    There are alot of things that happen amazingly on this earth and beyond. We might wonder of why and how it comes.  Hmm, I used to wonder a lot even why there are sesame seed on the outside of strawberry and the black sesame seed in the inside of a dragon fruit. I also wonder why white people have a very cute face with a very straight nose go upward to the sky. These are just the example of how I wonder about our differences to the human being, plant, animal and other things. It comes a time I start to realize that there’s only one version of you and I and everything is one of a kind. We can be similar but not the same. That’s why there’s a word saying” Same Same but Different ”

    I’m sharing you this because my doubts are cleared,  my wonders are cleared,  my questions are answered and the answer I got is only one the same answer. Can you guess what is the answer?

    Since HE is the beginning, who is before him? Since HE is the one who created all things, who is the other creator? Since you know how the world 🌍 was made, why do you have to wonder? Since prayer cause things to happen,  why do you doubt? Since God first love you, why don’t you believe that He is He, the Lord. If he can make single things and person on this earth different from each other, why can’t you thank to him and Praise HIM?

    I stop wondering and asking why. Nooo,  I do ask Why but it’s not in the sense as before. Even there was and will be hard or good time. I love to count it as BLESSING. My answer to you is GOD, He is the LORD! If God is not going to answer my question right now, I know that I will know on his timing,  why?  Because everything he does is for my own good. Looking back to the past week that I was unknown to myself. I got attack by Satan and I became weak. It is not a big deal and it’s a  challenge that God want to strengthen me. Even Satan can attack me but GOD won’t let him succeed.  GOD took the advantage of Satan’s attack to help me tell how great he is in my previous post “It’s Ok not to be OK” and “An Unlosable Desire ” God always turn things from bad to good with his power, his love to us, his care for us and to bring us closer to him.

    I don’t want you to think that your current bad situation is a curse. GOD knows only how to bless. Do not asking why you are not bless like the other. I do ask a ton of times why why and why before I knew God. Why don’t you look back to the day you are in your mother’s womb, once your mother know she has you. She and her family already count you as their blessing. You and I are a gift🎁 from God and we are his because he is the one who bring us to life and to see the world.  Moreover, bad childhood memories or good memories are the blessing, if it is not for now it will be for the future. Do not ask God why he put you in this kind of family like what I used to asked him. You know what, “papa” the first word that the child can say to his Dad is the blessing for the family especially to the father of that child. You are the blessing and God continue to help you and be with you on this earth and in heaven. There will be a time you have an understanding that no one will understand you. There is also a time when you speak nothing, complain nothing, beg nothing, and the result is Amen and Amen!

    No doubt and no wonder why you don’t understand it at all because it is how this post is named. Well, it is because I am really blessed. God touched my heart so much and I want to praised HIM. That’s it.

    No Doubt No Wonder
    A Newborn God’s Girl 👸